friday morning rain...

friday morning rain is pouring,
steal some futons share some blankets,
clouds are shrouding me in moments i want to forget,
i twist to hid from my tutor,
but he tries so hard that i have to wake up now,
and i'd rather gladly stay in my bed and sleep some more,
if i knew class was going to make me sleep anyway,
if i knew class was going to make me sleep anyway...

i don't know about other people... but...

the scientific equation,

morning rain + darkness + a big comfortable futon + me = sleep

why do these people love to wake me up when it rains? i swear i'll bite the next person who wakes me up when it rains... can't we make it a public holiday if it rains in the morning? and after i drag myself to class, the teacher starts talking, and all i can hear is, '今日の授業はとてもつまらないので、寝てもかまへん' (today's classes are going to be very boring, it's alright to sleep) for god sake, the teachers here, some are so terrible... one guy, when i was copying his unreadable notes and listening to his unreasonable explanations... i was giving my hundred percent to try to understand him, then all of a sudden blank.... when i woke up, my notebook had a big mark on it, it seemed that i fainted from trying to hard to understand him, and the pencil i was using and writing notes with got dragged when i fainted and made a big big big awful line on my book... today when the weather is so good for sleeping, i don't thing i'd last more then 5 minutes in his class... well anyways... i'll try my best....

when someone's wish comes true...

if you people haven't realized it yet, what i write is always my pure thoughts, and music is one thing that can really express my feelings without me busting into some long illogical explanation as why i find my life trivial and such... the thing is... what do we live for?
i live to become a hero, a person that will save people from their final failings... but here is the irony, for my wish to become true, are the people around me supposed to be helpless and be unable to live without me? i just realized something big a few weeks ago, at least to me, what we wish for often doesn't come true because not everyone can get what they want... sounds stupid and you were going to say, 'i knew that!' but think again, for you to get into a university, someone else fails, for you to earn 1000 dollars more, someone earns 1000 dollars less.
everyone's wishes doesn't come true at the same time...

utada hikaru - darekano negai ga kanou koro
(when someone's wish comes true)
小さなことで大事なものを失った
冷たい指輪が私に光ってみせた
「今さえあればいい」と言ったけど　そうじゃなかった
あなたへ続くドアが音も無く消えた

あなたの幸せ願うほど　わがままが増えてくよ
それでもあなたを引き止めたい　いつだってそう
誰かの願いが叶うころ　あの子が泣いてるよ
そのまま扉の音は鳴らない

みんなに必要とされる君を癒せるたった一人に
なりたくて少し我慢し過ぎたな

自分の幸せ願うこと　わがままではないでしょ
それならあなたを抱き寄せたい　できるだけぎゅっと
私の涙が乾くころ　あの子が泣いてるよ
このまま僕らの地面は乾かない

あなたの幸せ願うほど　わがままが増えてくよ
あなたは私を引き止めない　いつだってそう
誰かの願いが叶うころ　あの子が泣いてるよ
みんなの願いは同時には叶わない

小さな地球が回るほど　優しさが身に付くよ
もうー度あなたを抱き締めたい　できるだけそっと

I've lost something important because of small things
The cold ring showed its glimmer to me
I said, "All I need is today," but that wasn't the case
The door to you vanished without a sound

The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But still, I want you to stay, and I always did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
That way the door won't make a sound

I wanted to become the only one who can heal you, who is needed by everyone,
and I've endured it a little too much

To wish for own happiness is not selfish, right?
If that's so, I want to hold you as tight as I can
When my tears dry up, she'll be crying
That way, the ground under us won't dry up

The more I wish for your happiness, the more selfish I become
But you never hold me back, you never did
When someone's wish comes true, she'll be crying
Everyone's wishes can't be granted at once

As the small earth rotates, I learn to become more kind
I want to hug you once more, as soft as I can

what a busy life...

emm... let's see... solve this equation...
design competition (making paper bridges)
+foreign student speech contest (in school)
+english speech contest (in akashi kosen)
+sports festival
+kosen (college) festival#
= ???
= to me dying... what the hell? why am i so busy one ah? who ask me to join this and that, some more i not yet +badminton club lagi... god... help me... i pray this 2 months past by fast... so i can go and ski with wei shen during winter...
ok ok erhemm...
serious a bit...
well i got my self pretty messed up here... i shouldn't be in so many of these things... why can't i see the future?! give me some strength to see the future if you don't want to give me magneto's powers please!!!
ERHEM... still not serious enough... i'm still blabbering... sorry...
i hope i can do well in the speech contest when i represent my school, i've got this phobia called legs-shake-violently-on-stage phobia a.k.a. stage fright. at least a used to have it when i was younger, now i don't know maybe it has become better or maybe it has become will-faint-on-stage syndrome... anyhow... the design competition team looks like they are trying to win this year, but with the fact the only think within a box, and new ideas seem to be out of the question for them... which is making me quite sick... but must endure... Omm... Omm... i started meditating recently to relieve a lot of unwanted stress... not working though... it only leads me to eating mid-night snacks... which is why i'm so fat now TnT ... since doing the design contest thing also collides with my badminton practice, i can't go for it... sigh... wanted to become better... SIGH...
yoshi yoshi!!!
i've got to work hard from now on, this post is just an impulse... i really hope i wasted your time!!!