farewell

it's not that i want to leave you behind,
it's just that i have to leave you behind,
it's not that i don't want you,
it's just that i can't have you...

in a time where all i want is for your eyes to fall on me,
it doesn't,
in a time when all i think of is your smiling smiling face,
it hurts...

let me go, i know that you may still be here,
let myself go, i know that i may still be here,
here in a moment caught between now and then,
not knowing if i should hold on or let go...

fare well my love, farewell,
we might meet again someday, if fate says so,
but for now, i've got to leave you and go,
i know it might not matter to you, but it does to me,
and for all the times i've hurt you, i'll say sorry,
and for all the times you've hurt me, i'll try forgetting,
but for now,
fare well my love, farewell... for now...

it might have been a short acquaintance,
but i remember ever detail of you,
how you laugh and the way you stare blankly into air,
while you think of everything but me,

i know i'm just a shadow in your life,
nothing important but just always there,
it might be hard for me to grasp the reality that i don't matter to you,
but it matters to me, it matters to me....

fare well my love, farewell,
we might meet again someday, if fate says so,
but for now, i've got to leave you and go,
i know it might not matter to you, but it does to me,
and for all the times i've hurt you, i'll say sorry,
and for all the times you've hurt me, i'll try forgetting,
but for now,
fare well my love, farewell... for now...


ps: this is about a japanese girl who probably doesn't give a crap that i exist but some how i keep thinking of her and it is starting to get on my mind, so i just wrote a song (and blew it out of proportions) so i can focus on studying for my exams... v^.^v
plus a silly photo!