is what we have with us never enough?

some people say, if only i had this...
i feel kind of worried when i read the 'papers' (the online version) these days. well, with all kind of political stuff that i can barely comprehend happening i wonder if people stop to ever smell the flowers by the roadside. in our community nowadays, people tend to have tunnel vision, you know what is tunnel vision? tunnel vision is a saying used in horse racing where the horse has restricted vision and can only see what is front of it, by not being able to see what there is on both sides, the horse has only one goal, forward. nowadays people fix eye covers so that their horses have tunnel vision too. get the idea? we ain't horses... when we move too fast, we start forgetting, we start forgetting what is important.
truly i believe people nowadays would rather save a tonne of money then spend it with friends and family. i wonder if money is taking over us, all we see nowadays is money, and i feel stupid when i do the same too. i'm not implying that i'm greater than anyone, but i'm asking you to realize that, we are losing our values, ourselves. just a few weeks back, someone told me thank you, and i smiled and said it's nothing. but she stared back at me and said, ‘優しくしてくれて、ありがとう．．．’or thanks for caring about me. all i did was cook her dinner, since she always only eats rice balls everyday, i thought making her dinner one day would make her happy and i made her some simple fried rice, her smile i will never forget, because her smile was one of gratefulness, and i ask you, have you seen that recently? people seem to move too fast around me, why doesn't anyone want to just look up at the stars and wonder which one is bigger, why doesn't anyone want to just scream out into the sea and laugh out loud? why doesn't anyone want to realize that the best joy you can find in life is finding that hidden happiness in people's eyes?
maybe i'm just mad and i'm stupid, but that makes me me, i want to live my life without believing the lies people tell me, i don't want to be bound to the ground and drag the chains that shackle me... i want to be the way i am, free... what i have to me is enough, an almost clear conscience, so before you think of saving the world, save yourself first...
peace la... just wanted to write out my thoughts... hehehe