of times and days you don't feel like doing anything...

yesterday was a holiday, and we had our hostel sports festival. two events, volleyball and badminton. i didn't want to take part in volleyball but my friend came up to me and said 'we are short of one person, won't you join us?' and i couldn't find it in my heart to reject his offer. truth is i like to play volleyball, just not in that particular team, cause there is this one irritating girl who think she is so good (well to a certain extent she is good but...) and likes to look down on me, or so i think. well i just don't like the pressure i get when i play with her, cause she always wants to win. well... we won two and lost two in the end, quite a 'bad' results for us, because we were supposed to be so 'strong' with me in front... and her blabbering away... i hate her...
badminton on the other hand, my team name, yes, MY team's name was 'foreign student team + one japanese' the name gives us away right? hahaha... we were tipped to win since a vietnamese junior and i were on our side, and all the others on our team were also not half as bad in fact, i think they were on par with me. i was named captain, i don't know how, and i couldn't prevent a giggle from getting loose during the first round match when taufik (my batch mate) yelled 'our captain is so cool!!!' well my first match was against a guy and a girl, the girl, two years my junior, pissed me of during the week in an 'incident'. i just realized i'm starting to hate girls... but hell, i don't care... well, but the point is, i didn't want to let my team down, so i was a bit serious, and i had this part of me were i don't smash girls, so i was smashing the guy and after about 5 points, i felt pity for the guy... hehehe, his face was like, please don't humiliate me in front of this girl, but after 10 points, i started letting up and let them get a few points. the next few matches were quite lame too, in the end i looked like a really serious coach when i was giving orders to the other teams and going 'nice shot', 'don't mind'. well at the end of the day, i felt kind of useless for taking advantage of all the weaklings... Wuhahahahaha.... ya we won the badminton thing, but wasn't too happy, cause we knew we'd win...
what we won, 500 yen coupons for the koperasi
the proof of winning

stUck IN tHe miDDle...

not exactly stuck, just in the middle i guess. time flies, i really get the meaning nowadays, i still remember when i was speeding down highways with my friends and haunting the cyber cafes until the wee hours of the morning, never once in those times i've thought i'd be separated from my friends and family, not once. now it's been a whole year and i've barely been able to spend anytime with my family and high school friends.
but in contrast, i've gained quite a lot of new friends and i've gained a lot more of new experiences. i started to realize how young and raw i am compared to this world, and i've come to point where i want to face these challenges rather hide behind others.
with my new juniors here, and me becoming head for foreign students in the dormitory, i guess i'm trying to prove myself, prove myself to myself not others anymore.

For only if you believe,
only can others start believing,
never ever doubt yourself,
for everybody else will,

For only if you run,
only can others start walking,
if you stay stuck,
you will be left,

For in our own lives,
only we make our choices,
let's make right ones,
let's make a difference.

celebrating alan's birhtday + celebrating new kohais arrival
don't they look alike?
vietnam guys... (you'll have trouble understanding what they are trying to say)
wan ying and her kohai(pui san) wore the same shirt... ahhh... so sweet...

a holiday i remember...

well... time i wrote something before people start shouting at me again...
i spent my spring holidays at my sweet home in malaysia. i can't remember feeling as relaxed and as calm as i felt last month. amma (mother) cooked and cleaned my every single thing, i didn't have a chore left to do, and God bless her, because she doesn't know the truth that i can only be lazy there. appa (father) took care of everything else for me, the best part was when he thought me how to cut a chicken and how to make yogurt (the successful and unsuccessful way). God i had a fun time with my dog, Shiro too, damn i miss him. he always throws tantrums and plays with us roughly, but i know in his heart, he loves us all, especially my elder brother. akka (elder sister) spent us much time as she could with me, i know right now she is still thinking that she should have spent more time with me, but i know how hard it is for her right now, and i wish her all the best, because i can't be there to be with her right now. anna (elder brother) he is the greatest, one person that i admire, he canceled all his appointments with his friends just to be with me. i now sleeping in the same room as him when i was there gave him some comfort that he can still look after his younger brothers. mayu oh mayu, my dear little brother, i hope you are studying well, and i hope you are not giving them trouble.
to all my friends out there, i know, i didn't come and see all of you as much as i could, i wanted too, but one month is never enough to come and see all of you. i miss all of you very much and i'm not even sure whether i'll even get to see some of you all again.
it frightens me at times when i turn back and look, i don't recognize the old me anymore, i want more and more now, it almost feels like a lust which can never satiated... well, for now... i don't want to write about that...
my house!!!
my dog!!!
my mom!!!

oops... i did it again...

i played with your mind... and i did not update my blog... i'm not that innocent...
well i tried my best...
there is a very simple reason why i didn't not update my blog, the internet in malaysia is slow... it's so simple, so for the past one month during my spring break, i have been spending quality time with my family. i feel a little sorry cause i couldn't meet all the friends i wanted to, i miss many of them dearly, but the 'damage' done to me by staying here in japan too long is that i treasure my family more and i had to spend as much time with them as i possibly could.
today is the first day of school, i really am not quite sure what is going to happen but i hope i get of on the right foot. i don't really want any extra responsibility than i already have right now. i'm actually looking forward to classes and all this year, i want to do my best this time around and hope it will help me get into a good university. my next post will be later this weekend... will try to get some photos uploaded by this saturday. i promise!!!