it's saturday, but still a school day...

these past few days... 'normal days' have begun again, it's like hell, think of waking up at seven after sleeping at around two, then going to school until 4, start badminton practice at 430, then eat at 630, bath at 7 then try to rest but you can't because you have a tonne of homework... start drawing this and that in the end you finish around 11 and then you watch a movie you wanted to watch for so long... you end up sleeping at two again... and the best part you find out you have class on saturday because the parents are visiting to see their children study... damn i feel like i'm not going to make it at times, but thank god, it's saturday and i'm still walking...

i stole a line from takacha's ame ni mo, kaze ni mo song...
Kaze ni fukarete ame ni utarete------ being blown by wind, being hit by rain
Demo aruite ikeru kara--------------- but i still move on
Jibun no tame ni jiyuu no tame ni---- for myself, for freedom
Demo mazu kimi no tame ni------------ but most importantly for you
Kaze ni fukarete ame ni utarete------ being blown by wind, being hit by rain
Demo aruite ikeru kara--------------- but i still move on
Jibun no tame ni jiyuu no tame ni---- for myself, for freedom
Demo mazu hito no tame ni------------ but most importantly for others...

makes me feel happy to think some other people think like me too, we always get back up, sometimes for ourselves, but mostly for the people who love us, am i wrong? i, i would rather lay flat down dead on the floor if no one cared for me... recently i got back my test results, i did quite well i think, but i guess that's because my course for now is still in it's 'infancy...' and it's still easy... for those who tried their best and didn't get the results they expected, for god's sake, it's the first time, you have like another 20-30 times to prove yourself... so everyone, don't worry, we all sometimes screw up, even at the most important times, but that's what's special about being a human, being a person, being someone...

anyway, today, half the day is over for me, i look more like a special shop item in school today. it looks like i'm a mascot for the school, all the parents are lighting up like light bulbs when they see me... well, i guess that can't be helped, right? i feel special at times, and i think i should respect that fact and not take advantage of it... tomorrow i'm going to Osaka, hopefully, and i want to get some things for summer (like a fan) and for god sake, this place is starting to burn up, it's near the sea, isn't it supposed to not have a big temperature difference? i have no pictures to put up this time... sorry... when i come back from Osaka, i promise to put up a lot of pictures!